more same old, same old

today a Govt designated Memorial Day the 26th actually, & now, 4:40 pm, turns out it was alot like every other monday except I did the laundry in the afternoon instead of the morning. lying in bed this morning after waking up for maybe a 30 min rest, thinking of how to off myself in the most recent way i have thought of. then got up, still depressed but a momentary visit from the Holy Spirit was a brightening development. Likely no one will ever read these lines, so the why of my leaving will remain a mystery. there will be no note.